I realize that as some of my friends and family have become my (ominous music) blog readers, there has been some surprise about our struggle with infertility.
Because many of our dear family and friends... didn't know that we were dealing with this.
Honestly, this journey that we've been walking is so private, so personal. I still don't talk about it well. I still have wrong attitudes, hurt feelings, and lots of sore spots about it. And it's a long convoluted story... and how much do I share? It's just awkward.
But when I started putting words out on this blog, sharing what God's doing here in this time, here in this moment, here in my life... well, it's all kind of colored by the journey we're walking right now.
Every realization, every reminder of God's faithfulness, His goodness, His grace, comes back to what we're struggling with in this moment.
The way I see God is through the lens of infertility.
That's the season I'm in.
And that's why I chose to share a little more about our journey.
But I also realize that I've left a lot of gaps- a lot of information unsaid, a lot of questions unanswered. And honestly, a lot of that was because we didn't have answers. And a lot was because it just didn't fit in this space.
This isn't an infertility blog. That's not the purpose of this little corner of the internet. So I didn't give many details, didn't share many thoughts on all that.
But that doesn't mean that I don't have stuff to say.
I want to let you know that even if you learn that you're not able to have children, or that having kids will be a struggle, it's okay. Life moves on. God is still good. I want to be an encouragement to those on this same path.
So today, I'll be sharing answers, the ones we know anyway, and filling in some of those gaps in our story of infertility.